Scarred

To rise, to fall.
To hurt, to hate.
To want, to wait.
To heal, to save.

Can’t hear it
We fear it
Awareness won’t come near it

Distractive
Reactive
Disguised in spite of time

I never bared my emotion
My passion always strong
I never lost my devotion
But somewhere fate went wrong

Can’t let them rape me again
Your venom’s not family here
Won’t let them fill me with
Fatalistic remedies

What if the rest of the world
Was hopelessly blinded by fear? 
Where would my sanctity live? 
Suddenly nobody cares.

It’s never enough
You’re wasting your time
Isn’t there something I could say? 
You don’t understand
You’re closing me out
How can we live our lives this way? 

You tell me I’m wrong
I’m risking my life
Still, I have nothing in return
I show you my hands
You don’t see the scars
Maybe you’ll leave me here to burn.

What if the rest of the world
Was hopelessly drowning in vain? 
Where would our self pity run? 
Suddenly everyone cares.

Blood...heal me
Fear...change me
Belief will always save me
Blood...swearing
Fear...staring
Conviction made aware

Give up on misery
Turn your back on dissent
Leave their distrust behind
Wash your hands of regret

Do you feel you don’t know me anymore? 
And do you feel I’m afraid of your love? 
And how come you don’t want me asking? 
And how come my heart’s not invited? 
You say you want everyone happy
Well, we’re not laughing.

And how come you don’t understand me? 
And how come I don’t understand you? 
Thirty years say we’re in this together
So open your eyes.

People in prayer for me
Everyone there for me
Sometimes I feel I should face this alone
My soul exposed
It calms me to know that I won’t

Blood...heal me
Fear...change me
Belief will always save me
Blood...swearing
Fear...staring
Conviction made aware

Give up on misery
Turn your back on dissent
Leave their distrust behind
Wash your hands of regret

Blood...heal me
Fear...change me
Belief will always save me
Blood...swearing
Fear...staring
Conviction made aware

Learning from misery
Staring back at dissent
Leaving distrust behind
I’m inspired and content

~Scarred, Dream Theater

A Change of Seasons

I remember a time
My frail, virgin mind
Watched the crimson sunrise
Imagined what it might find
Life was filled with wonder
I felt the warm wind blow
I must explore the boundaries
Transcend the depths of winter’s snow

Innocence caressing me
I never felt so young before
There was so much life to see
Yet I knew there must be more

But those days are gone now
Changed like a leaf on a tree
Blown away forever
Into the cool autumn breeze
The snow has now fallen
And I know where I stand
All of my childhood memories
Left lying in the sand

In my den of inequity
Viciousness and delicacy
Struggled to find the sane
Struggled to ease the pain
Ignorance surrounding me
I’ve never been so filled with fear
Now I know that there is more
The warmth is gone
But the chill forever here

I’ll always remember
The chill of november
The news of the fall
The sounds in the hall
The clock on the wall, ticking away
"seize the day"
I heard him say
Life will not always be this way.
Look around, and hear the sound
Another time like this can’t be found.

'Gather ye rosebuds while ye may
Old time is still a-flying;
And the same flower that smiles today
Tomorrow will be dying.'

We can learn from the past
But those days are gone

In my frail, virgin mind
Words have lost my way
I have to seize the day
To home I returned

Preparing for her flight
I held with all my might
Fearing my deepest fright
She walked into the night
She turned for one last look
She looked me in the eye
I said, ’i love you... good-bye.’

Please don’t go

So far so few between
My eyes filled full
With desire fulfilled
All my dreams came true
All the world,
And all of you
Everyday there’s a constant reminder
Of all the pleasures we shared together
Love is not just a passing word
It’s a state of heart that goes on forever

I was blinded by a paradise
Utopia high in the sky
The love there will never come away
Deep in sorrow, wandering faraway

I stood outside in the rain for us
I tried to work out all of the pain for us
I sat alone and took the blame for us
My mind has torn and gone insane for us

Innocent sinner
Repeat offender
Promiscuous promiser
A faith lender
Indecisive decisions
Torn with heartless divisions
Watering all my visions of love

Of all the world, I give to you
All of the world,
All the world, I give to you
All of the world

I’m much wiser now
A lifetime of memories
Run through my head
Memories they taught me
For better or worse, alive or dead
I realize, there’s no turning back
Life goes on the offbeaten track

I sit down with my son 
Can’t you see the crimson sunset
He’s my only one
Now that my time has come
Now that my day is done
Looking into the sun he said
’don’t go, don’t go,
Please don’t go, now.
Don’t go, don’t go, don’t go, don’t go.’

~A Change of Seasons, Dream Theater

The Silent Man

A question well served,
'Is silence like a fever?'
'A voice never heard?'
'Or a message with no receiver?'

Pray they won't ask
Behind the stained glass
There's always one more mask

Has man been a victim
of his woman, of his father?
if he elects not to bother,
will he suffocate their faith?

Desperate to fall
Behind the Great Wall
That separates us all

When there is reason
Tonight I'm Awake
when there's no answer
Arrive the Silent Man

If there is balance
tonight He's Awake
If they have to suffer
There lies the Silent Man

Sin without deceivers
A God with no believers
I could sail by
on the Winds of Silence
And maybe they won't notice
But this time I think
It'd be better if I swim

When there is reason
Tonight I'm Awake
When there's no answer
Arrive the Silent Man
If there is balance
Tonight he's Awake
But if they have to suffer
There lies the Silent Man

The Silent Man, Dream Theater